NEW VIDEO: Ian Kamau “One Day Soon” (Album Release Recap)

Ty Harper | Music,Video | Monday, December 17th, 2012

Read Kamau’s thoughtful and candid reflection in its entirety HERE!

Sometimes we don’t know what we have when we have it.

After the release of my album, One Day Soon, I experienced one of the longest and lowest periods of depression in my life thus far. I suffered it mostly alone in my apartment during a cold, grey winter in Toronto. Most people I know where completely unaware save a few who cared, and cared to know. I am lucky to have a handful of close friends who supported me though it. The album was not doing what I wanted, a relationship I was in ended between when the album was released on Oct 7 and the album release celebration on Nov 11, I found myself arguing with friends and avoiding them as I only wanted peace, I felt drained, I was left with a great sense of isolation and loneliness.

I wanted my music to be ‘successful,’ I thought the energy that I put in would come back in a form that would help me pay my rent, for longer than two months and not drive me into debt. I felt immobilized; many days I didn’t leave my apartment, often I didn’t leave my bed.

The truth is, I don’t know what I’m doing. I am an artist, that is the only thing I ever wanted to be, the only thing I ever wanted to do, I have other interests of course, but they always lead me back to something creative, something about communication and purpose. I have failed a lot, made a lot of mistakes, but how is it possible when you know so clearly what you should be doing that it never really works?

Previously: NEW VIDEO: Ian Kamau – Black Bodies

Previously: VIDEO: Ian Kamau – Making the ‘One Day Soon’ Tee

Previously: VIDEO: Spoken Honestly – Ian Kamau

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